After her little talk with Alex Karev in the NICU that morning, Addison had been paged for a 9-1-1. A 3-car pileup put the lives of a 32 week pregnant mother and her child at stake. She did her best in the OR and luckily, everyone pulled through. The baby would be okay although her lungs were a little underdeveloped. With time in the NICU, she would recover nicely. As for the mother, she was pretty beat up from the accident, but Addison expected her to be fine in a couple of days.
She went to the nurses' station with their charts in hand, ready to do her post-op notes. When she went to write the date, she had to check her cell phone, her mind having drawn a blank. The stress and constant mix of emotions had been doing a number on her. Lately she found herself spacing out or just drawing blanks when she needed to recall trivial things like the date.
When Addison flipped open her phone, however, her mind was definitely not drawing a blank. The date. Her date. Their date. Today was the same day that Mark had circled on a calendar eight months ago. She'd almost completely shut that part out of her mind completely, having forgotten most of it, or at least telling herself that she'd forgotten about it. But looking at the date now, it was real. It wasn't just a special day eight months into the future. It wasn't just a day to wait for. It was here and there wasn't anything that was going to happen. She had taken that away.
There was a large part of her that regretted having aborted Mark's baby. Yeah, it gave her a chance to try and work things out with Derek, but that apparently didn't get her anywhere. Their marriage still ended. She didn't get the baby she wanted with Derek. Addison had just ended up all alone. She didn't have Derek. She didn't have Mark. She didn't even have a baby, a baby she could have had to make her feel loved. What's done is done and she couldn't change any of it.
Feeling like she was losing herself to her emotions, Addison closed the chart and grabbed them to go work on them in the privacy of her own office. When she turned quickly, she bumped into the one person she couldn't bear to see right now; Mark Sloan. Tears pooling in her eyes, she kept her gaze on the ground as she whispered an apology and tried to get past him.
(OOC: Okay, so I know we're pretty AU and I'm stealing this from canon, but come on. Maddison baby abortion? Too good of a storyline to pass up, right? Right ;] )